In California, I had five DUI convictions in the 1990s. What are my chances of getting an expungment or pardon?
Four of the DUIs were for being over the legal limit, the other was for a wet reckless, under the legal limit. My last DUI arrest was in 1997. There were no injuries or accidents involved in any of the incidents. On the last one, due to the number of DUIs in a seven year period, I sentenced to State Prison.
I know what I did was wrong, but at the time, of my first DUI, I was a Deputy Sheriff, and dealt with some terrible situations, involving murders, child abuse and seeing the evil that men can do, especially when I saw some of the institutional criminal behavior of my fellow law enforcement officers. In many situations, I had to cover for fellow officers(as directed by superiors), when they routinely violated the civil rights of ordinary citizens, who committed nothing criminal, but were in "contempt of cop", whereby charges were trumped up, typically resisting arrest.
I used alcohol to anesthetize my inner feeling of self loathing for compromising my principles and to fade the images of people with a bullet hole in their head with their brains splattered on a pillow or the homeless families living in a van with no place to go and my sadistic partners impounding their vehicle, whereby the family had no place to go.
Now with the new public awareness of Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, I realize that I had all of the symptoms of PTSD. Up until my time on patrol, I had no alcohol problem. I internalized all of my problems, I never wanted to tell my wife about what I had to deal with on a daily basis, as I did not want her to experience the horrors by proxy. You could not talk to other cops about how you felt, yet they would consider you, "weak". Several others tried to report abuses, and in return, had their careers destroyed and were stressed out so much they resigned from the department. Things have changed somewhat since my time as cop and the code of silence is not as strong as it used to be.
I am hoping that my PTSD, may be a mitigating factor regarding my alcohol abuse. I have been sober since 1997 and have had no other legal problems since my last arrest in 1997.
Now days, it hard to find gainful employment with a felony on your record. Is there any way I can have my record modified. Subsequent to my last conviction in 1997, completed law school and have a JD Degree. I have yet to take the BAR exam as my felony conviction may stand in the way of being admitted to the California Attorney's BAR.
Any help will be appreciated. Hindsight is 20/20, and there is not a week that goes by, that I do not think of the mistakes I made. I would love to go back in time and change the way I handled the situation. But," the cows have already left the barn", I am just trying to restore some dignity to my life.
